What is not working for you with your home life is what you must truly forgive to make good. So stop complaining about what happened in the past and what you fear for the future to withdraw the shadows that cover the happy home you seek to have and to be.
Your True Home...
To build your home upon the rock of Perfect Love is to build from the right mind that knows the truth of wholeness. Where there are no cracks of separation for you to fall through. Where you have dissolved the darkness within that seeks pain, problems, and punishment in time.
If you want to have a home filled with love, then you must find this within. As what is within extends or projects outward. So clean up what you think deep within, with Truforgiveness, and as you change your mind from the wrong to the right the story in time will correct well.