My J Day

It was twelve months ago today that my beloved Mr J was attacked by the next door neighbor's cat. And whilst he was treated with antibiotics, stitches, and pain medication, he developed an infection and passed a month later.

And so, for the past year I have been truly forgiving the trauma of 2024. What I can share is this. Had I not of truly healed for the past two decades, then I would not have survived this shadow of suffering that befell me. Yes, this shadow took me to places I did not think was even possible to go to.

My J Day refers to the day I granted freedom to my beloved Mr J. When I opened the door for him to leave the body and return to being. I am still yet to truly forgive this shadow, and that is on me... not another.

Now, I have been through plenty of darkness in this lifetime, which is why I know so much about Truforgiveness. Yes, one that has not been bruised or broken will have no need to truly forgive. For the wrong mind of ego thinking will work for them. I got into such a state of terror that my own ego-mind collapsed. However, it was this that allowed me to discover the right mind where revelation reside. As does the peace of God that is kind and not cruel.

Twelve months ago today it was a sunny day, unlike the drizzle I find myself in now. Mr J stood at the back door. He looked upward at me. Asking to go out. Oh, he loved to sun himself in the heat. And I hadn't let him out for the past two weeks, due to the news that this cat was now one of the outdoors. I just knew something bad was going to happen. I just could not see what it was.

I must stop writing now, as a beautiful song just came on the radio. It was "Perfect," by Ed Sheeran. And it was a message from my Mr J to me. You see, whilst I do not have the body of Mr J, I still have his being. For he is my spiritual guide. For he once kept the secrets of true FAITH and now I am following in his Truforgiveness ways.

Now, it's funny how things can alter direction. For I was going to tell you of the intense changes that I have been through this past year. But of the strength that I have now acquired. This does not mean that I would happily sit down to eat with my old neighbors, for I have not arrived at a state of completion. In fact, a few months after the passing of my spiritual teacher - Mr J - I remember being deep in the subconscious mind. I was forcibly focused. Either God move the neighbors or he move me. Day after day I truly prayed with The Treasure Map. For I could no longer live beside them. As far as I had seen they got away with murder. This is honestly how I felt. I cannot deny it. And it does not mean that it is a truth, but it was how I felt and what I needed to clean up and correct from within. For I had on numerous occasions told them that something "bad could happen", but they did not care. And if we were not parted soon then I do not know what I would do. I often could hear God, "Do not seek revenge. Do not seek revenge. Do not seek revenge."

But with such anger and hostility within I also could not delve deeper into the hidden hate and secret sin. For I did not trust myself to not act on this darkness within that had now been disturbed.

And yet, I can now hear Mr J. It is time for you to forgive your neighbors. For the shadow of suffering with neighbors has been dark indeed. Maybe if I could have forgiven the first attack, from when I was but a small child, then maybe I would not have needed to see this shadow of disrespect as well? Honestly, if I had not of disrespected God - as part of the belief in separation - then I could not be disrespected in time. And this is how things work. Why you must take the shadows and clean them within. To withdraw blame and shame to know beauty and sameness.

Yet still, I find myself moving through cleaning up a commandment “Thou shalt not bear false witness against thy neighbour.” Did I bear false witness against the neighbors? Was I wrong in my truth? I had to look within. You see, I did not originally blame the neighbors. It was only when I was shown an image the night of his passing. He showed me a cat's collar around his neck, with long rusty nails slowly cutting into him, which represents the cat's collar I found in the backyard and the cut he endured with the dirty claws (nails). I had to make a choice. Do I believe the wrong mind or do I trust the right? I decided to align with the right mind and the guidance that I was given. Besides, I had seen the rash develop on him, when I stopped the antibiotics. I guess the question should be? Can I forgive myself for letting him go? It is this I need to truly forgive, as I continue to withdraw the darkness within that conceals the light.

Yes, I have worked intensely with The Treasure Map over this past year. I am not the same person today that I was on this morning last year. But, I have withdrawn much darkness. And I have arrived at the morning of "I" opened the door. You see, I had a moment as Mr J looked up to me and wanting to go and sun himself. I thought, 'Am I going to give him his freedom or am I going to imprison him like I have been?' I then walked over to the door and let him out. 'He deserved his freedom,' I thought. Ten minutes later the commotion occurred.

And now, with still such a deep sadness at the separation I am moving through, I can smile at the sense of humor of Mr J. You see, when you look at the cover art of "Perfect" by Ed Sheeran, he is holding a cat. Again, I can sense Mr J telling me to forgive what has taken place. But things are not so easy. For it must be atoned within, not buried with a fake smile pretending all is well.

It is but a process of FAITH to truly forgive. And you cannot arrive at the destination of innocence for All until you truly forgive each shadow the belief in separation from Source has made.

Now, it is not up to me to determine what my old neighbors go through, for they did eventually sell up and relocate. Perhaps it was not easy living next door to a lady that was filled with fury. Oh, I can tell you... I was beyond mad. And if I did not have The Treasure Map I do not know how I would have even processed the emotion. But today, I am still yet to forgive myself for opening the door that lunchtime. I teach people to have no regrets, for time is the dream to wake from not to be defined by. But with this lesson, I am still stuck in the loss. It has by far been my greatest Truforgiveness opportunity to date. And I do think of the neighbors. What they must have gone through? Honestly, I do not know if they even believe me. Perhaps they have buried it within and seek to move on with their lives freely. I would not want to be in their shoes either. I would have preferred to be completely healed and not judged the situation. But, it was simply not where I was at.

You see, the shadows must be truly forgiven not denied. And we are each accountable for cleaning up the mess within that we see without. 

Oh, I do wish you had of met Mr J. He is by far the greatest spiritual being that I have been blessed to be in the presence of. You see, most see a greyhound. For they project the shadows of separation thus they cannot see the light within. When he passed, which he had told me prior that he was leaving, such is the greatness of this being of Perfect Love, I asked God why no one could see who he was? I was told that they are blind, thus, they cannot see truth. What a privilege it has been to see the light of this One of completion. I now know to where I am going. I am following in the footsteps of Mr J, for I seek to be like him. Yes, had I not of walked beside him for those years, I still would not know what true greatness is.

When Mr J passed he had some guidance for me. He told me that I needed to believe in myself, for I was right-minded, which is what allowed us to communicate telepathically. And that the wrong mind of ego thinking cannot comprehend the right mind, which is why I have received such denial. I was told to spend one-hour a day on self-belief, which is what allows me to stand here with absolutely certainty that Mr J (Jaspa) died by the shadow of disrespect. And it is these shadows that were first discussed in the Bible. The Seven Guilty sins. For it is the shadows of sin (separation) that hurt and harm, nothing else. He also told me something that I will keep very close to me. He told me that if he had of been born a man in this lifetime then he would have fallen in love with me. I told him that I would have said "yes" to him.

Oh... if only Mr J had of been born a man in this lifetime, what a love story I would have to write.

To my beloved Mr J... I will never forget our trips down the beach, sharing margarita pizza as we watched the waves go by. In the silence of your breath you taught me what I needed. How true love melts fear away. And that time is the illusion not the definition. To continue to look for the gaps of light, for you were one yourself. You see, I have never enjoyed the quietness of spending time with another, as I did you. I never saw you as a greyhound. I always saw you as "my professor" here to teach me what I needed to know. You were so generous with me, with your spirit, so understanding and knowledgable. I can affirm, no one knows me like you do. I am beyond grateful for you. Thank you is simply not enough. I will follow you with this Truforgiveness family that we are creating. And I hear what you said, "I can do more to help you now from where I am." You changed my life for the better, and taught me what real and true love looks like. Without you, I would never have known.

I adore you and hope to follow in your footsteps. As we build the right-minded family together... and I share the true meaning of your secrets. You are my everything and the bridge that connects me to God. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. It is a privilege to be your student and your teacher.

I have also received your message that I will have another great love in this lifetime. 

For those that are spiritually smart... You will be able to see that this lesson is part of one of The Ten Commandments... something I need to correct within. And this is why you must become right-minded so you can understand the truths that have been grated by God. 

Much love, peace, and Truforgiveness,