Miraculous Manifesting
It is the guilt of the sin of separation that seeks for ways to hurt you. For too long now you have been taught to keep a 'high vibration' and only concentrate on thoughts of good. This keeps the belief in separation as being a reality for you, which is the true cause of every pain/punishment/problem you seem to face in the illusion of time.
The True Way to Manifest...
Do not attempt to manifest from the wrong mind of ego-identification (sin, guilt, and fear) for it is this self that seeks the ways to punish.
Learn how to remove the barriers to the awareness of love's presence, via The Treasure Map, and you will find the right mind of peace and love that is there to offer you your deepest desires. The more you shift your thinking from fear to love, the better the dream in the illusion of time you shall have. No longer is about positive thinking, but rather clean thinking, as you purify the ego thoughts to find the thoughts you share with God. Those that are love not fear. Which is what The Treasure Map delivers.
Continue to mentally clean within with Truforgiveness until you have found peace with the problem that you face. When you have peace the outward projection is pleasing and no longer punishing.
When I was seeking to manifest my work to the world, I kept on cleaning it up from within. Even when it seemed nothing was happening. I became vigilant to remove the darkness that kept my deepest dreams from being made known.
Do not give up on yourself. You are worthy & deserving of the great life.