The Light of Truth Is Hidden Within

When I was just a small child of 5, almost 6, I had my first encounter with reading energy, which I remember. It was one of those moments when the life you once had would be gone and a new picture would begin to play. For me, it would become dark and depressing, yet my greatest Truforgiveness opportunity, which taught me to follow the inner voice, not the ego. 

I was in a cubby house with a friend. We were naked. Playing a game of doctors and nurses. I had never played this game before and was shocked when I was told to take off my clothes, including my undies. I am not sure why I did not stop at this stage. Even now, whenever I see snails, I am jolted back to this memory, for there were snails crawling up the wall. It should have been a game of innocence, yet, my inner voice, which I do not remember hearing prior to this day began to scream and shout at me. "Get out now. Get out now. Get out now." I had within me a strong voice that was demanding that I leave the room. All I could think to myself was 'I didn't know my tummy could speak.' And then, just before the door to the cubby house opened and the dark demeanor of a man appeared, it said something like, "I told you." And then it went quiet.

If you keep on reading, I will tell you why I am sharing this story with you now. 

I never remembered what happened after the man opened the door. For the very next moment, I was standing fully clothed in my parents' lounge room. You can imagine my shock. One moment ago I was naked playing a game that I would go on to describe as dirty, feeling the most fear that I had ever felt. The next, I was fully clothed in another house. I often thought about this over the next few decades. When I was really young I would think, 'Did I fly home?' I often tried so hard to remember how I got dressed. But, there was nothing there. The two moments were joined, but they simply did not fit into the picture in time. I thought about this memory often, even though I tried not to. I would begin to run from the past, hoping that I would become free from it. However, you do not become free from anything until you truly forgive it. For that is what love does. This is why they say that love is freedom. And it really is. 

I still remember the actual thoughts that went running through my head on this day in 1980. 'I have to tell my parents. What do I have to tell them? If I tell them, they won't love me, they will leave me and I will be all alone.' 

And so, I decided to bury the secret of this day. Never wishing to tell another. Little did I know that by burying secrets, you build a fortress around yourself that keeps others out. As I allowed the dirtiness within to build with each passing year, the self-hatred would develop into eating disorders, drug use, issues with friendships, relationships, and sex.

Suddenly, seemingly overnight, I had changed. Even I recognized it. My parents had no idea of what had happened to their child. I was gone and there was someone else in my place. I cried at everything. My way to communicate that all was not well in my world. Honestly, I lost my Mum and my Dad on this day. This is what I regret the most. The loss of my parents and the bond we once shared.

I stopped playing with children, instead choosing to hide in my bedroom as a way to protect myself. Yes, I still had friends, albeit as much as I could, at arm's distance. However, I never did see this young friend of mine again or the man that opened the door prior to my disassociation of events. Well, not until decades later when I was suffering from acute PTSD, and the girl and I found our way back into the same mental healing hospital. The only time I was ever a patient and I should see her there. I mean, what are the chances? It was meant to be. 

If I could go back and change it all, would I? I am not sure. I most certainly would change the fact that I lost my parents, emotionally not physically. This happens when you cut yourself off from love, which is what I did. My way to cope.

Yet, because of this day, it forced me into a spiritual retreat. I have spent so much of my life hiding from the world, which allowed me the time to develop my connection with God. As kids would play together, I often found myself talking to God in my bedroom, afraid to leave the house. I did want to leave at times, my bedroom, but God would tell me that I had work to do. 

I have been building The Treasure Map since I was a small girl. Had I not become so ill I would not have absolute FAITH that this works. It can truly heal anything, for it undoes the belief in separation, which is the true cause of every suffering we seem to face. 

Looking back, the day in question when my life hit one of those bumps to take it in a different direction, I would not be a spiritual teacher today had it not happened. I have moved through the pain and punishing problems and accept the life that I was meant to go through. Yes, I have struggled with relationships and allowing people to get close to me. But, it was simply the path that I was meant to follow and when you find your way out of the dark and into the light when the grievance becomes grace, you become grateful indeed. 

I have accepted my life. I was never intended to settle down and have a man take care of me. I am here to do God's work and in order to teach His Truforgiveness, I have had to go through hell to find the way out. The way that leads to Heaven - Oneness. 

You can heal. I have done so. I have reclaimed the truth of innocence for All and it offers the happy dream in time. Peace. Love. Acceptance. Healing. True Healing. Where you remember your true Self: the being of Perfect Love, not the body born to die. 

I read energy. I do it because I had to learn to read God's energy and to connect with Him in all the years that I have spent on my own. And so, why am I sharing this with you today?

Well, about an hour ago I was walking. I saw a lady that I often see around as she walked her rather large Rhodesian Ridgeback. Not having any dogs with me today, I asked if I could pat him. She said yes and sat him down. I took one step towards this great creature and then the inner voice sounded. I felt the contraction of my energy telling me not to move forward. She told me it was safe again. Then, as I thought to step ahead, the inner voice stopped me. Without a second to think, this four-legged mountain jumped up and lunged at me. Mouth wide open and making screaming noises. I jumped back. He lunged again almost pulling his owner over. For a second I thought he was going to rip my arm off. He just missed. Honestly, in all my years handling dogs, I have never had this happen to me. 

Had I not listened to this inner voice, I am not sure how I would have fared? If I am tired, I often do not hear the inner voice, as I am bound to the wrong mind of judgment and attack. Hidden deep within you is the voice of love, Perfect Love. It will keep you safe through your journey through time. It cannot take away all your lessons, for we must learn to confront the darkness to discover the light. 

The light of truth has been hidden within the dark lessons you move through. Truly forgive the dark and you shall find your light. 

If you want to truly heal, then make sure you come into The Treasure Map. This is God's Truforgiveness, the way He taught me how to truly forgive. It is how you shall move the mountain that stands in your way of the good life you seek. And do not let my spiritual jargon get in your way. Learn to truly forgive, by the process of FAITH that I teach and you too will give up the pain and suffering for peace and love. 

It does not matter what has happened to you. I have demonstrated this with the life that I have lived. You must learn how to truly forgive, which is what I teach. And, it makes miracles happen. 

If you are ready to let go of pain to find true healing and happiness you never knew existed, then come into The Subsidized Course, True Healing & The Treasure Map. Here, I teach you how to draw up your maps that undoes the past in the present to release the future from suffering. You truly forgive and God will take care of the rest!

Much love, peace, and Truforgiveness, 
Tash xxx